Answer a question with a question!

Ah don't do that. When my little brother was sick, and hospice was called in, we all vented with them. They were the best.
We all had things we regreted not doing, or saying, or more time with him to see him with his daughter.
They told us, what is supposed to happen will happen. No matter how we worry, or what we try to do.
It didn't comfort me at the time, or long after, but it did finally remind me something bigger was out there beyond my control, no matter what I did.
He had been in pain so long, I couldn't help him, it wasn't going to get better, so I was finally thankful he was not in pain, mercifully, at peace.
I had to remember & question & hate & be scared & angry when the same thing happened to my mom.
I'm still not there. I cry for her. So understand that I know.
Will you try to remember this, dear lady?
(do you know I'm crying now? For me & you?)
 
Calico, you do have such a way with words! Do you know that to even know you guys remotely, I feel so very blessed???
Will you know that I mean that from the bottom of my heart??
 
Don't cry.......I really think I am ok with things. I know eventually it will happen and I have no regrets. I do talk to the hospice social worker to get my head straight on things and they are a godsend!! I'm getting better. They are making sure she is comfortable and that is all I can ask for right now. She still knows who I am and Heather and Andrew and my dh. It's just so hard to face the facts sometimes.
Thank you for sharing that and thank you for knowing how I feel. I really appreciate it
Ok.......lets get off this subject now because I didn't want to bring anyone down.
Calico.......do you see how many posts Dee has now?
 
Do you know I am the type that shoves the ones who care about me away when I hurt so they don't see my pain and worry, so to share here is a tough and unique thing for me?
And that I thank you for saying that? And that is a verbal hug and i thank you?
 
Do you know I am the same way? I am glad you were able to let it out. You know in a way that is a good thing........Isn't that what Martha says? lol
 
Hey Dee, (thanks barb for changing subject)do you know all the good memories you have ahead of you? And things you could never dream of?
 
yes I am aware......but I am also scared shitless!! But truely do you know that I could not ask for anything more in life even if I sat and tried to think of something?? Do you know how scary that is??
 
No. When I was your age, I lived for the day, or not much passed. i just took for granted thins would always be okay. You haven't had thsat luxury. Do you know things are different today than they were in the 70's?
 
Just think of all you have to look forward to with your daughter, that in itself is going to be amazing, don't you think?
 
Can you believe I have always looks forward to being.....a grandmother??? That way all the hard work is done and I know all went welll and I can then sit, relax, and just enjoy my family and make them cookies :D But till then I guess my job is to worry isnt it??
 
I guess to worry is a woman thing. This from a 2wice divorced woman with no kids(not by choice), and is in her 50s. And I still understand?
 
Ultimately I have great faith....but I do understand whatever may happen is indeed out of my control and it all happens for a reason even if it might hurt deeply. That is where my true trust is.....that it is all part of a greater plan.....does that make sense??
But no matter what, I am extremely grateful for every second!!
 
sorry ladies but I must go pass out now.....did you know my little one has a built in alarm clock set for 6:30 without fail??? mooaaan and groooan!!!
 
Ok, you two...its' time for me to say good-night!! I've been up since 6 and will try to get a couple hours sleep tonight. Do you know I really enjoyed this tonight? Thank you!
 
Just do your best, love the most and you will be able to go to sleep at night, in peace. And yes, it's in our jeans to worry, but also to give life. Man's is to test it. yin yang kind of thing.
But do you know I need to sleep now?
My chest hurts and don't think I'll sleep too long,
but when you're not taking in alot of oxygen, your body tires faster?
 
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