I messed up

TexasGirl

TexasGirl

The Invisible
I was told today by a dork that I am a dumbass!!
Things are going on that need to happen, but, I was in a depression this morning after something that happened last night. Anyway, I've been craving a cigarette for months now, even after over a year quit. I felt really down and I bought a pack this morning:ohmy::ohmy:
I smoked a whole damn cigarette and got a head rush from hell then so nauseated, I thought I was gonna puke!! I felt pretty sick most of the day, headache really bad. Well, I don't want another damn cigarette as long as I live!!!:sick::sick::sick:
 
I've been feeling like a puff now and then, too.
I think you should send the rest to me so you won't be tempted.

;^)
 
Probably the best possible outcome from buying the pack. :thumb: :beer:
 
yeap, that was meant to be Doc!! LOL
Peggy, you have to want to in order to do it. I don't mean, I need to quit, no, that won't do it. I was sick of it. I would get nauseated from the first one in the morning and have headaches all day. I got tired of my car having ashes in it. I still love the smell of them. Probably why I wanted one, but, now I know,lol
 
Know what you mean, I want to, and need to, I have tried so many times, but could not kick the habit!
 
Peggy said:
Know what you mean, I want to, and need to, I have tried so many times, but could not kick the habit!
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Gotcha.
I set a day, 30 days ahead of time. I kept telling myself everyday that I was going to quit on that day. I didn't cut down, I actually smoked more to make myself sick from them. on that day, I smoked my last one. That was Friday. I had bought Commit lozenges to help. Those are very strong and taste bad, lol
I only used 10 of them over the weekend and by Monday, I put them down too. It took a few weeks, but, the craving eased and I was able to just think of something else when I wanted one and it was gone. one thing that helps is to stop worrying about how long it been since you have had one and how much you need one, think more along the lines of WOW, I have gone that long without it!!
 
Stacy, it was just one and you got sick. If you remember that the next time, you won't go there again. Let yourself off the hook. In my book, you are still a nonsmoker.
 
I quit trying to quit and I've tried every method know to man. Last time I quit the family went out and bought me a new zippo lighter and begged me not to do again until I could be locked away.
 
I'm glad that they tasted so yucky to you. I quit about 6 months ago, but I'm afraid that if I allowed myself to go outside, sit in my little wicker rocker, and light up a little Virginia Slim Menthol Light that it would Not taste yucky to me. Therefore........mmmmmmmm..........I do not even......mmmmmmmm......allow that thought to enter my..........mmmmmmm........mind.........mmmmmm........(that's the yoga/meditation sound :mrgreen::mrgreen::mrgreen:). I will not go back (no matter how big my butt gets:D:D).
 
Yep, you're still a non-smoker. It was a slip, but it doesn't need to be more than that. And you're still my hero for quitting in the first place, girlfriend!!!
 
I can't call you a dumbass, Stacy, cause I would have to call myself one first. My last attempt failed after 3 months, grrrrrr. I think part of the problem was as you said, you have to want to but I only needed to. I told the family to stop pressuring me and let me decide on my own, that way I would know for sure it was because I wanted to, not because I needed to or they wanted me to.
I just bought a box of that nicotine gum, now I have to set the date. Nobody say anything or you will jinx it! LOL!
 
I wouldn't say you're a dumbass because cigarettes are some of the hardest hings to quit and have a high relapse. Getting sick after smoking that one seems like a good thing since it will cross your mind next time you get a strong urge to light up again.
I've been off cigarettes for six months now but had help with nicotine patches and toostie roll pops. lol
 
props to you TG and the rest of you who have quit.

last time I made it 7 months and was doing OK did not even want the things... then I started obsessing finally one day it was buy a pack and go to work or not get out of bed... I knew what I was doing I really did not feel an option. right now I know I do not have what it takes to quit. I hope to someday be there again.
 
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